May 2012
11 posts
One year older
I keep telling myself you’re just worried about who I’ll become: a spitting image of my father through and through. It’s not fair to me though. Haven’t I proved to you that I won’t become who you’re so afraid of? All of my high school career I was bottled up. Partly out of choice and the other part was not to disappoint you in any way whatsoever. Most of my...
When you listen to a song you used to listen to...
forevershinie:
majss:
hey will you remember me in a day
yeah
will you remember me in a week
yeah
will you remember me in a month
yeah
knock knock
who’s there
i thought you said you’d remember me
April 2012
7 posts
March 2012
1 post
Steel heart strings
I was playing my guitar today. It felt amazing.
I missed how good it hurt to play. The strings rubbing my fingertips raw is a bittersweet sensation. It hurts, but it feels good to make progress. I’m hoping I don’t give it up this time around. My guitar has been sitting by itself for far too long. Besides, my mom keeps saying it was a waste of money to buy it to be collecting dust like...
February 2012
2 posts
painful poison
It’s painful to watch. It’s painful to swallow.
I wish so hard sometimes that things were different. I wish he didn’t drink himself into this dark unreachable oblivion. There are so many things that I wish I didn’t have to deal with. They call this life, but this isn’t a life that I chose. It’s one that I’ve decided to withstand and grow stronger from....
January 2012
5 posts
WHAT THE FUCK
It never freakin ends.
Drama up the ass.
the only hope for me
Sometimes I wake up in the morning feeling so chipper I could just brush off that chip on my shoulder that I wake up with sometimes.
There are other times where I wake up hating the world without even seeing what’s in store.
Today wasn’t a day like what I described in the second statement.
I did have a hard time getting out of bed. Not because I didn’t want to wake up in...
music jitters
Today was a good day. I’ve begun to listen to My Chemical Romance little by little again. So much emotion. Some people would argue this, but I really don’t care. Music is music and what it says touches me. I would think that’s what they want their music to do and they’ve at least touched my heart.
Another thing I’ve done today is watch the new Fun. video. Found out...
HBD
Important dates come and my head just jumbles up in confusion. Should I say it? Would it matter? Would it mess things up is the biggest question. And the answer is a huge freakin yes. But then the fact that I didn’t say it will haunt me for the next week or so.
Too bad a friendship couldn’t have lasted so I wouldn’t have this sort of thing hanging in my mind guiltily as if...
October 2011
1 post
What a...
Fuckin asshole.
September 2011
2 posts
sleepy foot
I hate the feeling of my foot being asleep. I sit on it too long: it falls asleep. If I have my knee bent in a certain position, my whole leg falls asleep. I CAN NEVER WIN. The numb sensation, if it can even be called a sensation if I can’t feel it, is so strange. Sometimes I wish that feeling would spread to every part of my body. At times I just don’t want to feel a thing and let...
3 tags
August 2011
1 post
late night jam
Listening to music, as I’ve said multiple times, is my ultimate therapy.
I’ve listened to music I haven’t heard in a good while.
Blink 182 was my first dose, then it was rise against, and sum 41. Following the first three was a drastic change in taste: N’SYNC. I know it sounds extremely lame, but that’s me: verstile and LAME. However, I’m extremely proud.
...
July 2011
12 posts
deep thought
I haven’t thought this much in forever.
I don’t ask for much. Sure things change and all. I just want to be happy. All things are possible right?
Things were better before anyway. I would like for things to go back to normal.
I just feel like everything was blown up way more than it really had to be.
By the way, I wasn’t the one who made things big.
Spent some time alone...
thursday, july 28, 2011=the worst fuckin day of my...
my task list for the day:
lose best friend: check
piss people off: check
So technically yesterday was a terrible day. I cried. I wanted to drink which is not good. I usually only want to drink to chill, but in this case it was because I was pretty upset. AGH
I ended up talking with “ex best friend” and it didn’t go very well. Now that I think about it, the way our...
“Well I can’t stand to look at you now
This revelation’s out of my hands
Still...”
– Seether-Country Song
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haha
wow.
it’s like “him” all over again.
how funny.
I didn’t think I would ever have to compare the two.
Why don’t you just say the real reason?
fuck everybody
I will put that bluntly.
FUCK EVERYBODY
I guess except for a very select few.
I’m tired of having to shop for new friends. My best friend is the only one I can truly depend on. The one guy friend I ever really had has now declared himself a stranger because of some exchanged words that he feels guilty for and supposedly I should feel guilty about too. FUCK that. I say things that I mean....
saturdays
I’m awake relatively early, it’s ridiculous.
That’s all.
contagious negativity
It seems like everyone in my house is gloomy today. It rained earlier. Maybe it was like foreshadowing the emotions for the day. I sure hope not. I just think life is getting the best of us. However, not in the good way as it might sound. There are so many things to look forward to. It’s the weekend. Free time for most of us. Hopefully, everyone just wanks it and feels better so that we can...
today is the deadest day i have ever known
There are way too many things going on in my mind that are just intangible ideas that haunt me way too often.
I’m listening to music right now. Korn’s “deep inside” pretty good stuff. my first ever taste of rock music that i was and still am pretty addicted to.
music is like the medication that i prescribe to without medical consent. it’s so sad that my guitar is...
Lately.
well this is my first ever post.
idk if this will make me feel any better. but hey. its worth a shot.
I’m ready for this slump to be over with.
I need a life. or atleast a more fulfilling one.
music is making me feel better. thats a plus.
writing makes me feel even better than music.
meh.
i’ll write later.